The Sun is Shining

Scott had a pretty good night. He managed to get some sleep. He continues to struggle with some delusions. This morning he was getting ready to go to a bowling outing and couldn't find his pants or shoes. The boys hasn't bowled in a few years and we weren't discussing bowling at any point yesterday. It's just his strange little mind working.
Other than the delusions he's doing well. Dr. Ben snuck in before I got here and removed the sandbag from Scott thigh. He still has the saline bags but we're moving in the right direction. We're just going to cautiously move one teeny tiny step forward at a time.
We're talking about going up to the floor today. SICU translation - moving to the 8th floor and out of SICU
As you can imagine I'm totally stoked - solo room, means Scott is more stable, easier visiting, better sleep etc.
And I'm totally completely terrified - Scott can go from A-OK to gushing blood and bottoming out in 15seconds. If he's here they can handle a crisis like that - upstairs not so much.
I completely trust Dr. Chad, Dr. Ben and Dr. N. If they think he's ready then I will roll with it. I just end up feeling like I need to be around more often which causes some stress.

We're also going to be getting him up and moving. For me the right balance would be to get Scott moving here (SICU) (just in case movement causes issues) and then transfer him to the floor if he handles that well.
I'm typically not a cautious person - I fly in small airplanes, I love riding fast on Harley's, at 24 I chose a career in a very uncertain risk filled field - I'm not risk adverse at all but when it comes to this I become filled with fear and trepidation.
Good thing the Dr.'s keep it real for me. And good thing I love them so much.

Today could be an interesting day. I'm hoping it's a good interesting.

At least we have Nate as our nurse today. He'll make things easy.

Crossing my fingers and swallowing my fear.